March Reflections – Turning 32, Initiations, and Deep Medicine Work
Wow… March, what a month you were!
This one felt extra special – I turned the big 32! A full solar return and a whole new cycle of growth. I celebrated with my besties and moved into my brand-new home, which honestly feels like such a full-circle moment. The old version of me wouldn’t even recognise the life I’m living now – and I’m so fricken proud of that.
I actually tried to go out for my birthday (yes, out-out). I lasted a whole 2 hours – go me! I had a little dance while the place was still empty and that was cute, but the minute it started to fill up, the energy shift hit me like a truck. I could feel every single attachment, every bit of stagnant energy clinging to people – and yep, 3 people asked if I fancied a cheeky line in the toilets. That was my cue. Out the door I went! Honestly, it just confirmed what I already knew deep down… the going-out scene, even sober, just isn’t for me anymore. I tried. But I’ve outgrown it – and I’m totally okay with that.
This month also marked a truly powerful turning point in my medicine woman journey.
I travelled down to London to complete my Hapé initiation with a beautiful sister called Jessica. And oh my goddess… it was unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. Seven back-to-back blows in each nostril – let me tell you, this was deep, ancient work. I’ve sat in six Ayahuasca ceremonies and thought I’d seen it all, but this was right up there. Raw. Intense. And deeply healing.
I’d experienced Hapé before, but it had been administered completely wrong. No intention. No sacredness. No understanding of what this medicine truly is. But this initiation cracked me open. It made me sit with my shit. It purged emotional blockages I didn’t even know I was still holding onto.
Hapé (or Rapé, as it’s traditionally known) is a sacred shamanic snuff used by indigenous tribes in the Amazon. It’s a powerful blend of tobacco and other sacred plants, blown gently into each nostril using a special pipe. It’s not a drug. It’s a medicine. One that grounds you, clears your energy field, connects you to the Earth, and invites deep release.
After completing my initiation, I felt this fierce, ancient reverence rise within me – for the Earth, for my path, and for this medicine. To be able to now offer it in a sacred, intentional way feels like such a privilege.
And I got to complete this initiation alongside my soul sister Fiona – a woman I deeply admire. Watching her rise in her own medicine path made me so proud. We held each other through it all – the tears, the purges, the breakthroughs.
From that powerful journey,I went straight into our Manchester day event… and wow, that room was charged with love and transformation. There was this one beautiful attendee who had a MASSIVE breakthrough during the medicine ceremony – I’m talking full-body release, ancestral healing, and a reconnection to self that brought us all to tears. This is why I do this work. These are the moments that remind me – plant medicine isn’t a trend. It’s a sacred path of remembrance.
March gave me the deepest reminders of who I am and where I’m going.
So here’s to being 32, living aligned, and walking this medicine path with humility, reverence, and a fricken open heart.